Hell week

The tornado is still turning and I am being flung around like a rag doll.

Monday was the WORST day I have had in months, Tuesday was just a fraction shy of beating Monday.

This issue below has since been rectified. We are all communicating clearly and have a renewed understanding of our dynamic.

It seems that two of my family/close friends don't know me anymore and don't feel that I am a good person to know since my last break up. They came to me with concerns and expectations of me agreeing with them or seeing their point of view about how I should meditate right now and reflect on "who I am". I am meeting too many new people as a distraction of getting to know myself.

I disagreed strongly. I know who I am for ONCE in my life. I AM doing the things I wanted to include in my life. I am more confident in my person so I am able to meet more people now than before. This isn't negative, this isn't me not knowing who I am...this is me being me for once and they aren't handling the change. I am not rude, mean, unkind, or anything. I am just more excited about things outside myself. Does this mean that I have stopped looking inside myself, NO!

I am reflective, introspective, etc. I do take time for myself to enjoy life with just my thoughts and aspirations. They honestly don't know who I am anymore. It saddens them that I don't believe that I should be living my life as they see. My life saddens them...

It saddens me...after all these years--they just don't know me. The only thing that matters is that I go to bed at night excited about my future, happy about my present, and thankful for my past.

The world evolves as do I.